{"id":7983,"date":"2018-04-05T06:10:07","date_gmt":"2018-04-05T06:10:07","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/wordpress.gurbuz.net\/?p=7983"},"modified":"2018-04-05T09:52:24","modified_gmt":"2018-04-05T09:52:24","slug":"cocugum-bana-kus-musun","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/wordpress.gurbuz.net\/?p=7983","title":{"rendered":"\u00c7ocu\u011fum bana k\u00fcs m\u00fcs\u00fcn?"},"content":{"rendered":"

Sabah annemle holde kar\u015f\u0131la\u015ft\u0131k, sordu bana yukar\u0131 ki soruyu\u2026
\nYok be anne, o kadar yorgunum ki ba\u015f\u0131m\u0131 yast\u0131ktan kald\u0131ram\u0131yorum\u2026
\n\u201cBende \u00f6yleyim\u201d diye cevap verdi, sar\u0131ld\u0131 bana \u00f6pmeye ba\u015flad\u0131, yanaklar\u0131m\u0131, g\u0131d\u0131m\u0131, boynumu \u00e7ocuk gibi.<\/p>\n

Kad\u0131nca\u011f\u0131z vefat etti ard\u0131ndan ko\u015fturuyor beni\u2026
\nHelali ho\u015f olsun, ya\u015farken k\u0131zsam, k\u00fcf\u00fcr bile etmi\u015f olsam ben ondan raz\u0131y\u0131m, dilerim tanr\u0131m\u0131zda olsun. Yok\u2026
\nO kadar yorgun, bitkin his ediyorum ki kendimi, inan\u0131n parmak oynatmaya hal yok. Anlat\u0131r\u0131m sabahlar\u0131 s\u0131ras\u0131yla ya uyand\u0131ktan sonra validenin yan\u0131na giderim ya han\u0131m\u0131n, kafa kalkm\u0131yor ki gideyim!<\/p>\n

Hasan a\u011fabey \u00f6lm\u00fc\u015f\u2026
\nAnlatm\u0131\u015f\u0131md\u0131r, annem minnet borcu duyuyor ona kar\u015f\u0131. Kazada \u00e7ok ilgilenmi\u015f, hep bizimkilerin yan\u0131ndaym\u0131\u015f. Asl\u0131nda k\u00f6t\u00fc bir insan de\u011fildi, yapt\u0131klar\u0131 kendine, ailesine\u2026
\nAf edilecek gibi de\u011fil diyece\u011fim, bana ne ama i\u015fte (\u2026)
\nBakal\u0131m rahmetli Hakan\u2019\u0131n nas\u0131l bakacak y\u00fcz\u00fcne?<\/p>\n

50 k\u00fcsur senedir ya\u015far\u0131z kap\u0131, kap\u0131ya\u2026
\nTan\u0131maz insanlar birbirlerini, ilgilenmez bu kim diye\u2026
\nYa\u015farken durum bu iken, \u00f6lm\u00fc\u015fsen durum de\u011fi\u015fiyor mu sanki?
\nYeriz birbirimizi, T\u00fcrk\u2019\u00fc \u2013 K\u00fcrd\u00fc, \u00f6ld\u00fcr\u00fcr\u00fcz birbirimizi\u2026
\nSonra\u2026
\nHi\u00e7 bir \u015fey olmam\u0131\u015f gibi\u2026
\nYan yana yatar\u0131z toprakta\u2026
\nYa\u015farken kap ve kap\u0131 kom\u015fusuyuzdur bilmeyiz birbirimizi\u2026
\nOra \u00f6ylede bura farkl\u0131 mi?
\nK\u0131z telefon etti, s\u00f6zde evlad\u0131n okul arkada\u015f\u0131\u2026
\nDefin edecek ya Oma\u2019y\u0131, mezarc\u0131\u2026
\nBug\u00fcn bulu\u015facakt\u0131k, d\u00fcn bulu\u015fmam\u0131z\u0131 istedi.<\/p>\n

Yapt\u0131raca\u011f\u0131m biraz farkl\u0131, g\u00f6rd\u00fcm ba\u015fkas\u0131nda \u00e7ok ho\u015fuma gitti\u2026
\nG\u00f6sterdim kuzenine, \u00e7ok be\u011fendi\u2026
\n\u00d6l\u00fcm\u00fc bilirim, \u00f6l\u00fcmle defalarca geldim y\u00fcz y\u00fcze, kankay\u0131z Azrail ile\u2026
\nHa toprak ha ta\u015f diyeceksin ama inan toprak ba\u015fka\u2026
\nOma yapt\u0131rm\u0131\u015f vakti zaman\u0131nda, kendi be\u011fenmi\u015f, kendi zevki\u2026
\nDURRR\u2026
\nNeden yay\u0131nl\u0131yorsun bu resimleri deme, BIL\u2026
\nSEBEPSIZ, nedensiz en ufak bir \u015fey yapmam, ispatlayamayaca\u011f\u0131m, kan\u0131tlayamayaca\u011f\u0131m\u0131 yazmam\u2026
\nYaz\u0131yorsam, anlat\u0131yorsam MUTLAKA vard\u0131r bir sebebi\u2026
\n\"\"
\n\u0130stemiyorum ta\u015fa bakmak, istemiyorum\u2026
\n\u0130nsanlar \u00e7ok memnun, k\u0131z Omac\u0131\u011f\u0131 \u00e7ok g\u00fczel y\u0131kam\u0131\u015f, paklam\u0131\u015f, s\u00fcslemi\u015f\u2026
\n\u0130nsanlar \u00e7ok memnun, ben g\u00f6rmedim, han\u0131mda g\u00f6rmek istemedi bir daha kals\u0131n haf\u0131zalarda \u00f6yle son g\u00f6rd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcm\u00fcz gibi. B\u00f6yle kestirece\u011fim \u00fcst\u00fcndeki ta\u015f\u0131, buna benzer s\u00fcsleyece\u011fim mezar\u0131n\u0131.
\n\"\"
\n\"\"
\nDedim ya ticaret\u2026
\nHep derim menfaat, para girmesin araya\u2026
\nBitiyor HER \u015eEY\u2026
\nVay efendim \u00f6yle kestirmek daha fazla masrafm\u0131\u015f, yeminle aynen b\u00f6yle dedim\u2026
\nK\u0131z\u0131m biz seninle konu\u015furken sen \u00fcstlerinde ta\u015f oldu\u011funu bile bilmiyordun, mermeri temin etmek mi daha masrafl\u0131 yoksa kestirmek mi?
\nSUSUTU!<\/p>\n

Yok karde\u015fim, \u00f6n\u00fcm\u00fc g\u00f6remiyorum\u2026
\n\u201cBir\u201d \u00f6l\u00fcm ya\u015fad\u0131m, bana yak\u0131n\u2026
\nBiliyorsunuz komadayd\u0131m, rahmetli babam. Annem hayatta\u2026
\nALLAH t\u00fcm ana ve babalara uzun ve sa\u011fl\u0131kl\u0131 \u00f6m\u00fcrler versin, kals\u0131nlar ba\u015f\u0131m\u0131zda\u2026
\nVeraset, miras falan. Annem hayattayken bize d\u00fc\u015fmez\u2026
\nNe karde\u015fim yapar b\u00f6yle bir terbiyesizli\u011fi, g\u00f6rg\u00fcs\u00fczl\u00fc\u011f\u00fc ne ben\u2026
\n\u00d6l\u00fcm hak, miras helal\u2026
\nVeraseti elim almak istemedi, almad\u0131m, yapmad\u0131m bir \u015fey\u2026
\nAMA\u2026
\nTayyipistan bu\u2026
\nAl veraseti, mal\u0131 ay\u0131rm\u0131\u015f gibi >>> g\u00f6r\u00fcn <<< vergi meselesi\u2026
\nArada hat\u0131r\u0131 say\u0131l\u0131r fark var, bil diye yaz\u0131yorum. Bir daha gidi\u015fimde ay\u0131raca\u011f\u0131m, karde\u015fte als\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcne bende >>> AMA <<< sadece k\u00e2\u011f\u0131t \u00fcst\u00fcnde!<\/p>\n

Allah, y\u00fcce Mevla\u2019m daha uzun, uzun \u00f6m\u00fcrler versin kara Mediha\u2019ma!<\/p>\n

Asl\u0131nda\u2026
\nKan\u0131ksayam\u0131yorum, k\u0131nayam\u0131yorum\u2026
\n\u0130ki insan\u2026
\nBirbirinin her halini g\u00f6rm\u00fc\u015f ve tan\u0131m\u0131\u015f olan iki insan, bir yast\u0131kta kocam\u0131\u015f olan\u2026
\n\u201cBirbirini bilmiyor, el mi beni, ben mi eli bilece\u011fim?\u201d<\/p>\n

Han\u0131m bilmiyordu ald\u0131\u011f\u0131m karar\u0131\u2026
\nDedim ya bulu\u015ftuk k\u0131zla \u201c\u00f6\u011fle vakti\u201d, bir araba park yerinde sadece bir\u2026
\nG\u00f6stermi\u015ftim k\u0131za istedi\u011fim \u015fekli, d\u00fckk\u00e2nda dedim han\u0131ma istersen ak\u015fama gideriz, bilmedi\u011fin, g\u00f6rmedi\u011fini sana g\u00f6stereyim. \u201cTamam\u201d dedi\u2026
\nAk\u015fam\u2026
\nNeredeyse mezarl\u0131k park\u0131nda yer yok arabay\u0131 b\u0131rakmaya, kimi g\u00f6rsek m\u00fc\u015fteri\u2026
\n\u00c7ok \u015fa\u015f\u0131rd\u0131lar tabii bizi g\u00f6r\u00fcnce\u2026
\nHele giri\u015fte, sanki bek\u00e7i \u00fc\u00e7 insan, ikisi m\u00fc\u015fteri di\u011feri hem m\u00fc\u015fteri hem kom\u015fu\u2026
\nMerhaba merhaba, laf att\u0131 bize giri\u015fte\u2026
\n\u201c\u0130sterseniz d\u00fckk\u00e2n\u0131m\u0131 size kiralayabilirim!\u201d
\nYa arkada\u015f s\u0131ras\u0131 mi \u015fimdi? Zaten yorgunum, ayak\u00fcst\u00fc iki lak lak biz yolumuza devam\u2026
\nHan\u0131mda be\u011fendi, dedim gel sana bir \u015fey g\u00f6sterece\u011fim\u2026
\nHaniiii\u2026
\nKalbimi \u00e7ald\u0131lar\u2026
\nYok kad\u0131n sen de\u011fil, sana emanet ettim, hat\u0131rla yapt\u0131klar\u0131n\u0131\u2026
\nRahmetliler i\u00e7in yapt\u0131rd\u0131\u011f\u0131m kalbi\u2026
\nBen i\u00e7i oyuk yapt\u0131rm\u0131\u015ft\u0131m, \u00e7er\u00e7eve gibi, i\u00e7ine \u00e7i\u00e7ek ektim\u2026
\n\u0130kisinin tam ayak ucunda, ortas\u0131nda\u2026
\nSSS\u2026
\nVe SSM yazd\u0131rd\u0131m\u2026
\nBeyazd\u0131, tertemiz. Beyaz mermer, burada kahverengi, t\u00fcmden\u2026
\nYapan\u2026
\nUsta.<\/p>\n

Baz\u0131 \u015feyler dikkatimi \u00e7ekti, evvelsi\u2026
\nK\u0131zla neredeyse g\u0131rtlak g\u0131rtla\u011fa gelece\u011fiz, o kadar k\u0131zd\u0131m\u2026
\nDedi \u201cmezar\u0131 s\u00f6kece\u011fiz, iki sene bekledikten sonra yeniden yapaca\u011f\u0131z. O g\u00fcne kadar tahta bir perde ve bir put dikece\u011fiz ba\u015flar\u0131na\u201d<\/p>\n

Uzatmayal\u0131m, nedeni\u2026
\nMezar \u00e7\u00f6kecek\u2026
\nKanun, kural b\u00f6yleymi\u015f\u2026
\nYap\u0131lacak hi\u00e7bir \u015fey yok!<\/p>\n

DUR DAHA BITMEDI ESAS ilginci bundan sonra\u2026
\n\"\"<\/p>\n

Defin meselesi\u2026
\nPapaz telefon etti demin, konu\u015ftum onunla, Allah raz\u0131 olsun t\u00fcm dindar insanlardan\u2026
\nAllah\u2019a y\u00fcrekten inanlardan\u2026
\nDedim ben bilmiyorum, gerekli olan her \u015feyi yap\u0131n l\u00fctfen\u2026
\nKahve i\u00e7meye, yemek yemeye gitmeyecekmi\u015fsiniz?\u201d
\nEvet, Efendim. Tan\u0131m\u0131yorum insanlar\u0131, oturam\u0131yorum uzun s\u00fcre!<\/p>\n

Bizde\u2026
\nM\u00fcmk\u00fcn olan en k\u0131sa s\u00fcrede, nedeni\u2026
\n\u0130klim \u015fartlar\u0131, O zamanlar\u0131n imk\u00e2nlar\u0131\u2026
\n\u0130yi deee\u2026
\nHristiyanlar\u0131n gerek\u00e7elerine ne demeli?
\nKatoliklerde mesela \u00fc\u00e7 g\u00fcn meselesi\u2026
\n\u00c7ok ama \u00e7ok mant\u0131kl\u0131\u2026
\nSorar\u0131m size\u2026
\nHEPINIZ bilirsiniz hortlak, vampir falan hikayelerini\u2026
\nEMINIM, hepiniz\u2026
\nPeki\u2026
\nBu \u201chikayeler\u201d ger\u00e7ekten uydurma m\u0131?
\nDe\u011fil!!!<\/p>\n

Kimi insan\u2026
\n\u00d6lm\u00fc\u015f >>> gibi <<< olup ger\u00e7ekten \u00f6lmemi\u015ftir\u2026
\nDiri diri sokarlar mezara\u2026
\nVe yine BILIMSEL ispatlanm\u0131\u015f ger\u00e7eklerdir, a\u00e7t\u0131lar kimi mezarlar\u0131 g\u00f6r\u00fcnt\u00fclediler\u2026
\nHani sesler, korkun\u00e7. Mide, genelde gazlar\u2026
\nVe YINE TABUT I\u00c7INDE >>> t\u0131rnak izleri <<<
\nEn g\u00fczel, anlayaca\u011f\u0131n\u0131z \u00f6rnek k\u0131\u015f uykusuna yatan hayvanlar\u2026
\nSanki \u00f6l\u00fcler\u2026
\nDirilirler ilkbaharda. Metabolizma, ila\u00e7lar var \u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fc and\u0131ran, kalp duruyor falan\u2026
\nBence bu defin konusu bir kez daha d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fclmeli!<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

Sabah annemle holde kar\u015f\u0131la\u015ft\u0131k, sordu bana yukar\u0131 ki soruyu\u2026 Yok be anne, o kadar yorgunum ki ba\u015f\u0131m\u0131 yast\u0131ktan kald\u0131ram\u0131yorum\u2026 \u201cBende \u00f6yleyim\u201d diye cevap verdi, sar\u0131ld\u0131 bana \u00f6pmeye ba\u015flad\u0131, yanaklar\u0131m\u0131, g\u0131d\u0131m\u0131, boynumu \u00e7ocuk gibi. Kad\u0131nca\u011f\u0131z vefat etti ard\u0131ndan ko\u015fturuyor beni\u2026 Helali ho\u015f olsun, ya\u015farken k\u0131zsam, k\u00fcf\u00fcr bile etmi\u015f olsam ben ondan raz\u0131y\u0131m, dilerim tanr\u0131m\u0131zda olsun. Yok\u2026 … <\/p>\n

\u201e\u00c7ocu\u011fum bana k\u00fcs m\u00fcs\u00fcn?\u201c<\/span> weiterlesen<\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":[],"categories":[1],"tags":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"http:\/\/wordpress.gurbuz.net\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/7983"}],"collection":[{"href":"http:\/\/wordpress.gurbuz.net\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"http:\/\/wordpress.gurbuz.net\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/wordpress.gurbuz.net\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/wordpress.gurbuz.net\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=7983"}],"version-history":[{"count":21,"href":"http:\/\/wordpress.gurbuz.net\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/7983\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":8007,"href":"http:\/\/wordpress.gurbuz.net\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/7983\/revisions\/8007"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"http:\/\/wordpress.gurbuz.net\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=7983"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/wordpress.gurbuz.net\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=7983"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/wordpress.gurbuz.net\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=7983"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}