Bundan uzun y\u0131llar \u00f6ncesiydi, her gidi\u015fimde yapt\u0131\u011f\u0131m gibi bo\u011fazda y\u00fcr\u00fcy\u00fc\u015fe \u00e7\u0131km\u0131\u015ft\u0131m\u2026
\nGezme\u2026
\nAMA y\u00fcr\u00fcyerek, izle do\u011fal g\u00fczelli\u011fi, g\u00f6r insanlar\u0131, takip et \u2013 k\u0131yasla de\u011fi\u015fiklikleri.<\/p>\n
KADIN\u2026
\nVe iffeti, kad\u0131n\u0131n kendini bilmezi\u2026
\nBen sizlerden de\u011filim\u2026
\nSizlerde benden!<\/p>\n
Evetti\u2026
\nHay\u0131r\u2019\u0131, tabiri caiz ise b.k yemisin sen\u2026
\nBEN\u2026
\nKad\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6rd\u00fcm ben kad\u0131n\u0131 ya\u015fad\u0131m doya doya\u2026
\nTOKUM .ma!<\/p>\n
Tabii ki g\u00fcnl\u00fck ihtiyac\u0131m ama o ba\u015fka!<\/p>\n
Her \u00e7e\u015fidinizi g\u00f6rd\u00fcm be, karakter, fiziki \u00f6zellikler\u2026
\nAma aptal\u0131 ki kad\u0131n de\u011fil mi \u015feytan\u0131n sol baca\u011f\u0131\u2026
\nAma s\u00fcper zek\u00e2 \u00e7ok bilgili, yatakta \u00e7ok tecr\u00fcbeli\u2026
\nYok parayla\u2026
\nErkeklik midir para kar\u015f\u0131l\u0131\u011f\u0131 kad\u0131n\u0131 yata\u011fa atmak?<\/p>\n
Kalbini \u00e7alarak\u2026
\nISTEYECEK\u2026.
\nRuhunun, bedeninin her k\u0131vr\u0131m\u0131yla beni isteyecek!<\/p>\n
\u201cAmca, buras\u0131 y\u0131llardan beri kapal\u0131\u201d
\nILK DEFA\u2026
\nBana yeti\u015fkin, re\u015fit bir insan amca dedi. Bir Mehmet\u00e7ikti, beni s\u00f6zleri \u00e7ok \u015fa\u015f\u0131rtt\u0131\u2026
\nHatta yazd\u0131m, iyi biliyorum y\u0131llar evvelsi.<\/p>\n
Galateya Grill\u2026
\nAh \u00d6nder ah, ben onu Galata gril diye alg\u0131lad\u0131m\u2026
\nHalbuki al\u0131\u015fveri\u015f merkezinin ismi, d\u00fcn han\u0131m ile yollardayd\u0131k, e\u015fya bakmak i\u00e7in\u2026
\nTabii ge\u00e7 vakit, karn\u0131m\u0131z ac\u0131kt\u0131. Eve git pi\u015fir, ye\u2026
\nYat geber yeme\u011fi\u2026
\nOluyor bazen, neden bilmiyorum\u2026
\nCan\u0131m \u015fiddet ile \u00e7orba istiyor, ile \u00e7orba i\u00e7ece\u011fim\u2026
\nTabii ki insanim, YANILABILIRIM ama \u00e7ok nadir\u2026
\nKIZDIM\u2026
\nNereden biliyorsun diye sordum, \u201cbizimkiler ile gitmi\u015ftim\u201d dedi\u2026
\nO kadar yorulmu\u015ftum ki, ayakta sallan\u0131yorum. Normal \u015fartlarda gitti\u011fim restorana gitmeye, y\u00fcr\u00fcmeye halim kalmam\u0131\u015ft\u0131. \u0130yi o zaman oraya gidelim dedim. K\u0131sa bir arama safhas\u0131, hat\u0131rlam\u0131yordu yerini. Sadece k\u00f6\u015fe ba\u015f\u0131 oldu\u011funu.<\/p>\n
Ben Galata Grill diye alg\u0131lad\u0131m ya, dedim MUTLAKA iyi k\u00f6t\u00fc \u201ckaliteli, bildik bir yer\u201d \u00e7\u00fcnk\u00fc isim\u2026
\nBuralar i\u00e7in\u2026
\nS\u0131ra d\u0131\u015f\u0131!<\/p>\n
Heyt be rahmetli pederin \u201cme\u015fhur s\u00f6z\u00fc\u201d
\n\u201cBir kula\u011f\u0131m\u0131n arkas\u0131 kald\u0131 \u2026!\u201d
\nHayat, benim kula\u011f\u0131m\u0131n arkas\u0131n\u0131 da becerdi!!!<\/p>\n
Hep diyorum ya tecr\u00fcbe\u2026
\nHele hele insan, g\u00f6rmem, asl\u0131nda biraz izlemem yeterli\u2026
\nAMA ile g\u00f6rmem gerekli\u2026
\n\u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc s\u0131fat, yok resimde de\u011fil ger\u00e7ekte\u2026
\nHal ve hareket\u2026
\nBana kitap!<\/p>\n
Kalbim \u00e7ok a\u011fr\u0131yor, kol, sa\u011f kol iyice gitti\u2026
\nBiri yorgunluk, zorlama\u2026
\nSon raddesine kadar zorlama\u2026
\nDi\u011feri \u00fcz\u00fcnt\u00fc!<\/p>\n
S\u0131rt\u0131m, ci\u011fer \u00fcst\u00fc\u2026
\n\u00c7\u0131ld\u0131rt\u0131yor beni, kanama yine ba\u015flad\u0131. Anlayaca\u011f\u0131n\u0131z\u2026
\nHer \u015fey \u201cnormal\u201d<\/p>\n
K\u0131z\u0131mmm \u00f6yle lap diye bu rakam s\u00f6ylenir mi?<\/p>\n
Al\u0131\u015ft\u0131ra al\u0131\u015ft\u0131ra s\u00f6yleyeceksin ki m\u00fc\u015fteri \u00fcrkmesin, 36 Euro istedi benden\u2026
\n>>> bol kep\u00e7e <<<
\n\u201cAma amacaaa\u201d
\nBa\u015flad\u0131 g\u00fclmeye, dedi bak tatl\u0131n benden olsun. Babas\u0131 geldi yan\u0131m\u0131za, o da g\u00fcl\u00fcyordu\u2026
\nJ\u00fclide tatl\u0131s\u0131ndan, baklava, kaday\u0131f\u2026
\nKatmere geni\u015f bir se\u00e7enek vard\u0131, hangisini istersin diye sordu\u2026
\nPorsiyon verecekti, dedim ya bol kep\u00e7e\u2026
\nDedim, k\u0131z\u0131m madem i\u00e7inden ge\u00e7ti birer tane ver tad\u0131ml\u0131k.<\/p>\n
Ah \u00d6nder\u2026
\nSen kendini g\u00f6rm\u00fcyorsun AMA \u00e7ok ihtiyarlam\u0131\u015f olman laz\u0131m o\u011flum\u2026
\n\u00c7ok ihtiyarlad\u0131n\u2026
\nPara kazanmak\u2026
\nO kadar kolay m\u0131, Laz u\u015fa\u011f\u0131na benzettim\u2026
\nBaba\u2026
\n\u0130ki k\u0131z\u0131.<\/p>\n
\u00d6yle bir \u015fey ki, bilimsel veri. INSANI<\/em><\/p>\n Han\u0131mla konu\u015fuyorduk bug\u00fcn d\u00fckk\u00e2nda\u2026 Karde\u015f bakt\u0131 manal\u0131 manal\u0131 y\u00fcz\u00fcme(!)<\/p>\n Neyse\u2026 Yazm\u0131\u015f\u0131md\u0131r y\u0131llar evvelsi\u2026 Annedir, anne\u2026 KIMSE YANLI\u015e ANLAMASIN S\u00d6ZLERIMI, ortaya yaz\u0131yor, s\u00f6yl\u00fcyorum\u2026 \u00c7a\u011f\u0131n ko\u015fullar\u0131 m\u0131 yoksa kazan\u0131lan ekonomik ba\u011f\u0131ms\u0131zl\u0131k ve \u00f6zg\u00fcrl\u00fck m\u00fc sebebi? 1983 y\u0131l\u0131nda Motorola ilk cep telefonunu s\u00fcrd\u00fc piyasaya\u2026 Dedi \u201ckad\u0131n oldu\u011fum i\u00e7in cep sahibi olma hakkim yok mu?\u201d Kad\u0131na\u2026 Bir kad\u0131n\u2026 Fark etmez\u2026 NOKTA<\/p>\n Peki neden bu b\u00f6yle? Kald\u0131rm\u0131yor bizim co\u011frafya b\u00f6yle bir davran\u0131\u015f\u0131\u2026 En g\u00fczeli ortas\u0131\u2026 T\u00fcrk filmlerinde eminim g\u00f6rm\u00fc\u015fs\u00fcn\u00fczd\u00fcr\u2026 Durup dururken neden anlatt\u0131m \u015fimdi bunlar\u0131 size\u2026 Psikolojik\u2026 Neyse\u2026 Yava\u015f yava\u015f\u2026 Ulan\u2026 Milyon verdim\u2026 Cemiyet denilen\u2026 Var tabii farkl\u0131 insanlar AMA o kadar azlar ki\u2026 Ve masum bir mangal sefas\u0131yla ba\u015flayanlar\u2026 Not:<\/strong> \u201cErkek\u201d oldu\u011fum halde\u2026 Bundan uzun y\u0131llar \u00f6ncesiydi, her gidi\u015fimde yapt\u0131\u011f\u0131m gibi bo\u011fazda y\u00fcr\u00fcy\u00fc\u015fe \u00e7\u0131km\u0131\u015ft\u0131m\u2026 Gezme\u2026 AMA y\u00fcr\u00fcyerek, izle do\u011fal g\u00fczelli\u011fi, g\u00f6r insanlar\u0131, takip et \u2013 k\u0131yasla de\u011fi\u015fiklikleri. KADIN\u2026 Ve iffeti, kad\u0131n\u0131n kendini bilmezi\u2026 Ben sizlerden de\u011filim\u2026 Sizlerde benden! Evetti\u2026 Hay\u0131r\u2019\u0131, tabiri caiz ise b.k yemisin sen\u2026 BEN\u2026 Kad\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6rd\u00fcm ben kad\u0131n\u0131 ya\u015fad\u0131m doya doya\u2026 TOKUM .ma! Tabii ki … <\/p>\n
\nKarde\u015f geldi yan\u0131m\u0131za\u2026
\n\u201cNas\u0131ls\u0131n Nuna?\u201d demesiyle han\u0131m\u0131n iki g\u00f6z\u00fc iki \u00e7e\u015fme\u2026
\nBazen ona Nuna der\u2026
\nKonu \u00e7ok \u00f6nemliydi, \u00e7ok ama \u00e7ok ehemmiyetli!<\/p>\n
\nKendini toparlad\u0131ktan sonra geldi yine yan\u0131m\u0131za\u2026
\nKonu\u015fuyoruz\u2026
\nDedim karde\u015fe hitaben; b\u00f6yleyken b\u00f6yle\u2026
\nVay efendim sen misin bunu b\u00f6yle diyen\u2026
\n\u201c\u0130yi ki vars\u0131n, sen olmasan ne yapard\u0131k bilmem\u201d
\n\u0130\u011fneliyor beni, ironi\u2026
\nDedim; \u201cg\u00fcn gelir arars\u0131n\u0131z beni!!!\u201d
\nDemek istedi\u011fi \u00e7ok bilmi\u015fim, hep ben biliyormu\u015fum\u2026
\nKe\u015fke her \u015feyi bilsem, ke\u015fke her soruna olsa bir \u00e7\u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fcm.<\/p>\n
\n\u00d6l\u00fcm\u2026
\nVe veya a\u011f\u0131r hastal\u0131klar kar\u015f\u0131s\u0131nda insan ne yapar bilemezsin\u2026
\nNasilll\u2026
\nBir tepki verir\u2026
\nG\u00f6rmemek laz\u0131m, g\u00f6rmemeye \u00e7al\u0131\u015fmak kimi \u015feyi\u2026
\nEn son rahmetli Hakan\u2019\u0131n vefat\u0131nda ya\u015fad\u0131m bunu\u2026
\nG\u00f6rd\u00fcm ya ya\u015fad\u0131m.<\/p>\n
\nVe o kad\u0131nlar, ba\u015f\u0131nda\u2026
\nBo\u011farcas\u0131na!<\/p>\n
\nBir tespit de\u2026
\nBir g\u00f6zlem\u2026
\nBir\u2026
\nEvet, bir yozla\u015fma, ahlaki, toplumsal ve AMA fakat\u2026
\nBuralarda, Tayyipistanda dikkatimi \u00e7eken bir olgu, kad\u0131nda ciddi bir bozulma(!)<\/p>\n
\nBilmiyorum a\u00e7\u0131k\u00e7\u0131s\u0131na.<\/p>\n
\nSeksenli sonrayd\u0131 ILK defa cep sahibi oldum\u2026
\nY\u0131llar sonra daha cep pek yok piyasada gitmi\u015ftim T\u00fcrkiye\u2019ye, yok Tayyipistan de\u011fildi hen\u00fcz\u2026
\nT\u00fcrkiye Cumhuriyeti\u2019ydi\u2026
\nKuzen alm\u0131\u015f kendine cep, k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fc\u011f\u00fc olan Yxxx\u2026
\nAman nas\u0131l \u015fa\u015f\u0131rd\u0131m, TEPKI VERDIM\u2026
\nBilinmesi gereken bizimkisi biraz Feminist, beni geri kafal\u0131 g\u00f6r\u00fcr\u2026
\nHalbuki\u2026
\nOldum olas\u0131, yani bili\u015fimci oldu\u011fumdan beri TAKIP ederim Think&Tankleri\u2026
\nKimi verileri\u2026
\nSosyolojik ve psikolojik yay\u0131nlar\u0131, kimi yerlere girip \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131k\u00e7a\u2026
\nKimi \u015feyleri \u00fcstlendik\u00e7e daha da yo\u011funca.<\/p>\n
\nEtme eyleme ben \u00f6yle bir \u015fey mi dedim?
\nAnlatt\u0131m, o zamanlar daha \u00f6yle FaceBok falan pek yok, var ama \u00e7ok az kullan\u0131c\u0131s\u0131\u2026
\nTwitter daha \u00e7ok entelekt\u00fceller aras\u0131nda reva\u00e7ta\u2026
\nVe y\u0131llar sonra g\u00f6r\u00fcyoruz ki\u2026
\nCep \u2013 mesaj, sosyal medya falan, BU Y\u00dcZDEN bo\u015fanmalar d\u00fcnya \u00e7ap\u0131nda artmakta!<\/p>\n
\nCebi falan\u2026
\nYak\u0131\u015ft\u0131ramad\u0131\u011f\u0131mdan de\u011fil MUMTEMEL sonu\u00e7lar\u0131 \u00e7ok \u00f6ncesi okudu\u011fum i\u00e7indir tepkim, uyar\u0131lar\u0131m.<\/p>\n
\nBilecek\u2026
\nBilecek karde\u015fim, fark\u0131nda olacak ortamdan, gidebilece\u011fi, durmas\u0131 gereken noktay\u0131 bilecek\u2026
\n\u00d6rnek vermek gerekirse\u2026
\nK\u00fclt\u00fcr\u00fcm\u00fczde\u2026
\nEvli bir kad\u0131na yak\u0131\u015fmaz yokken kimse yan\u0131nda\u2026
\nBa\u015fkalar\u0131yla gitmek mangala!<\/p>\n
\nKar\u0131\u015f\u0131k ortam, kad\u0131nl\u0131 erkekli\u2026
\nErkek var m\u0131 i\u00e7lerinde, var. Hele bu herif(ler) T\u00fcrk m\u00fc?
\nEyvah\u2026
\nSenden birisi var m\u0131 orada, yok\u2026
\nYak\u0131\u015fmaz.<\/p>\n
\nKad\u0131n\u0131 ahlaks\u0131zl\u0131\u011f\u0131ndan, d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcncesizli\u011finden, olabilecekleri\u2026
\n\u00d6ng\u00f6rememesinden mi kaynaklan\u0131yor bu d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnce YOKSA\u2026
\nErkek denilen hayvan\u0131n kendini dizginleyememesinden mi?
\nKADINI\u2026
\nSADECE ve salt cinsel bir obje olarak g\u00f6rmesinden mi?<\/p>\n
\nBu demek de\u011fil ki bu g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015f toptan yanl\u0131\u015f, de\u011fil\u2026
\nAma bat\u0131da h\u00e2kim olan \u201cserbestlikte\u201d \u00e7\u00f6z\u00fcm de\u011fil.<\/p>\n
\nNe birinden ne di\u011ferinden fazlas\u0131!<\/p>\n
\nHani evli bir kad\u0131n bo\u015fan\u0131yor, tak\u0131l\u0131yor kendini bilmez serseriler pe\u015fine\u2026
\nKad\u0131n, al\u0131\u015ft\u0131n. Bedenin ister, can\u0131n ister(!)
\nBen senin ihtiya\u00e7lar\u0131n\u0131 kar\u015f\u0131lar\u0131m…
\n>>> Bu laflar\u0131n bilimsel ger\u00e7eklere dayand\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 biliyor muydunuz? <<<
\nVe insan bedeni\u2026
\nRuhu, psikolojisi bu insani ihtiyac\u0131n kar\u015f\u0131lanmas\u0131n\u0131n ister\u2026
\n>>> fiziki <<<
\nBir ihtiya\u00e7t\u0131r, fark etmez kad\u0131n erkek, fark etmez!<\/p>\n
\nDedim ya \u00e7ekme s\u00f6zlerimi sa\u011fa sola\u2026
\nYorma ona buna\u2026
\nKimi bilgi vard\u0131r d\u00fcnyada\u2026
\nBEDELI, Y\u00dcK\u00dc, SORUMLULUGU AGIRDIR\u2026
\nBilgi gerekli ki anlay\u0131\u015f olu\u015fsun.<\/p>\n
\nSosyolojik a\u00e7\u0131dan empati!<\/p>\n
\n\u0130\u015fkembe \u00e7orbas\u0131 enfesti, yok hala yiyemiyorum\u2026
\nDald\u0131rd\u0131m pideyi hanimin \u00e7orbas\u0131na, ben mercime\u011fe dayand\u0131m\u2026
\nVe geldi kula\u011f\u0131ma\u2026
\nSen\u2026
\nNe verdin, verebildin?
\n\u00d6yle ya \u00f6z\u00fcrl\u00fcy\u00fcm, sakat\u2026
\nYemi\u015fim DARBEYI, hem de bir insan\u0131n o ya\u015fata yiyebilece\u011fi darbelerin en b\u00fcy\u00fcklerinden birini\u2026
\nGel zaman git zaman bir tatl\u0131 su manya\u011f\u0131 \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131 kar\u015f\u0131ma\u2026
\n\u0130ndirdi\u2026
\nY\u00fczdeki maskeyi.<\/p>\n
\nSevgi, \u015fefkatte\u2026
\nBen ne verdim ne verebildim \u00f6yle mi?
\nDIKKAT\u2026
\nTutup cemiyet i\u00e7eresine bile \u00e7\u0131karmam\u0131\u015f\u0131m(!)<\/p>\n
\nYa karde\u015fim ben sizlerden de\u011filim ki\u2026
\nNe verdim biliyor musunuz?
\nHuzur\u2026
\nG\u00fcven verdim, g\u00fcven SONSUZ bir g\u00fcven\u2026
\nD\u00fcnya batsa\u2026
\n\u00d6nder var ba\u015f\u0131m\u0131zda(!)<\/p>\n
\nAvrupa kazan biz kep\u00e7e gezdirdim\u2026
\nSergiler mi istersin, galeriler mi\u2026
\nTiyatro, sinema ve daha neler neler…
\nTarih mi, do\u011fal g\u00fczellikler mi\u2026
\nHangisini vermedim, g\u00f6stermedim, ya\u015fatmad\u0131m?
\nHangisini???<\/p>\n
\nAha\u2026
\nD\u00fc\u011f\u00fcn, ni\u015fan\u2026
\n\u00d6yle NEZIH \u00f6yle se\u00e7kin bir toplum ki buralardakiler\u2026
\n\u00d6GRETIR\u2026
\nSana g\u00f6t\u00fc, ba\u015f\u0131, bilmem neyi\u2026
\nBa\u015fkacas\u0131n\u0131 arama!!!
\nNOKTA<\/p>\n
\nC\u0131mb\u0131zla ara!<\/p>\n
\n\u00c7ok ama \u00e7ok farkl\u0131 yerlerde sonu\u00e7LANABILIR\u2026
\nULAN\u2026
\nGelini, kaynanay\u0131 en masum tabiri ile bir arada idare edeni g\u00f6rd\u00fc bu g\u00f6zler\u2026
\nDaha ne g\u00f6rebilir\u2026
\nDaha ne verebilir sana bir \u00d6nder?<\/p>\n
\nAyni BOKUN soyuyum\u2026
\nBir do\u011fulu ve bat\u0131l\u0131 erke\u011fin kad\u0131na bak\u0131\u015f\u0131 farkl\u0131 bir\u2026
\nD\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnceleri genelde de\u011fi\u015fir\u2026
\nKar\u015f\u0131ndakinin\u2026
\nD\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnce ve duygular\u0131n\u0131 BILEMEZSIN iki\u2026
\nSana\u2026
\nHangi g\u00f6zle bakt\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131, yakla\u015ft\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131\u2026
\nBu y\u00fczden, inan salt bu y\u00fczden bile\u2026
\nKad\u0131nsan\u2026
\n\u00c7ok ama \u00e7ok dikkat etmek zorundas\u0131n.<\/strong><\/em><\/p>\n
\nBir \u00e7eyrek\u2026
\n\u00d6rne\u011fin FaceBOK y\u00fcz\u00fcnden ba\u015f\u0131ma gelmeyen kalmad\u0131\u2026
\nD\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u2026
\nBir kad\u0131n\u0131n ba\u015f\u0131na gelebilecekleri!<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"