{"id":2497,"date":"2017-09-25T07:50:27","date_gmt":"2017-09-25T07:50:27","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/wordpress.gurbuz.net\/?p=2497"},"modified":"2017-09-25T07:50:27","modified_gmt":"2017-09-25T07:50:27","slug":"kendimi-oelduermek-icin-elimden-gelen-her-seyi-yapiyorum-ama","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/wordpress.gurbuz.net\/?p=2497","title":{"rendered":"Kendimi \u00f6ld\u00fcrmek i\u00e7in elimden gelen her \u015feyi yap\u0131yorum AMA"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>\u0130la\u00e7lar\u2026<br \/>\nKoca bir torba. Onlarca\u2026<br \/>\nKimya deposuna d\u00f6nd\u00fcm, resmen eczane\u2026<br \/>\nEn son kolesterol ilac\u0131, hani kan \u201cdonmu\u015f\u201d \u00f6ylesine ya\u011fl\u0131\u2026<br \/>\nTarifsiz bir mide bulant\u0131s\u0131, a\u011fr\u0131lar\u0131 bir \u015fekilde \u00e7ekiyorsun ama mide bulant\u0131s\u0131 berbat\u2026<br \/>\n\u0130la\u00e7lar\u0131 d\u00fczenli ald\u0131\u011f\u0131mdan beri asl\u0131nda iyiyim AMA bu mide bulant\u0131s\u0131\u2026<br \/>\nYaa\u2026<br \/>\n\u201cKar\u0131 gibi\u201d a\u011flanmaktan b\u0131kt\u0131m, ya\u015fam\u0131yorum, Allah akl\u0131 ald\u0131 can\u0131m\u0131 alm\u0131yor\u2026<br \/>\nAllah sevdi\u011fi kuluna e\u015fe\u011fini kaybettirir sonras\u0131nda buldururmu\u015f ya\u2026<br \/>\nSadece ar\u0131yorum\u2026<br \/>\nKendimi bir t\u00fcrl\u00fc toparlayam\u0131yorum. Ya uyuyorum ya ar\u0131yorum\u2026<br \/>\nBa\u015fta \u0130ki bu\u00e7uk gram ak\u0131l kalm\u0131\u015ft\u0131, galiba o da gitti.<\/p>\n<p>Ameliyat \u00f6ncesi g\u00fcnlerimi arar oldum\u2026<br \/>\nBacaklar tutmuyor\u2026<br \/>\nD\u00fcn Dada ile biraz gezmeye, y\u00fcr\u00fcmeye gidelim dedim, kendimi d\u00fckk\u00e2na zor att\u0131m\u2026<br \/>\nYe\u011fenim oldu\u011fu i\u00e7in de\u011fil, ger\u00e7ekten \u00e7ok saf ve temiz bir \u00e7ocuk\u2026<br \/>\nKalbi, som alt\u0131n\u2026<br \/>\nAllah onu da t\u00fcm evlatlar\u0131 da korusun, korkuyorum\u2026<br \/>\nBu kadar iyilik, safl\u0131k ileride ona \u00e7ok ac\u0131 \u00e7ektirecek. Belki inanmayacaks\u0131n\u0131z ama\u2026<br \/>\nBir damlac\u0131k boyu ile siyaset konu\u015ftu. D\u00fcnk\u00fc se\u00e7imleri\u2026<br \/>\nBen de\u011fil, yeminle ben a\u00e7mad\u0131m konular\u0131. O a\u00e7\u0131yor, soruyor, \u00f6\u011freniyor\u2026<br \/>\nBana ders veriyordu(!) \u00c7imleri bi\u00e7mi\u015flerdi yol boyu\u2026<br \/>\nSaman olma yolunda, kurumu\u015f. Toplad\u0131 bir kucak dolusu tav\u015fanlar\u0131na\u2026<br \/>\nAblas\u0131n\u0131 \u00e7ok seviyormu\u015f, k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck anne gibi ona bak\u0131yormu\u015f AMA onu anne gibi d\u00f6v\u00fcyormu\u015f da\u2026<br \/>\n&#x1f60a;<br \/>\n\u00c7ok seviyormu\u015f onu, onu k\u0131zd\u0131rmay\u0131, \u00e7ok ama \u00e7ok\u2026<br \/>\nAh ke\u015fke yine \u00e7ocuk olabilsem, ke\u015fke\u2026<br \/>\nVeya\u2026<br \/>\nHi\u00e7 d\u00fcnyaya gelmemi\u015f olsam!<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>\u0130la\u00e7lar\u2026 Koca bir torba. Onlarca\u2026 Kimya deposuna d\u00f6nd\u00fcm, resmen eczane\u2026 En son kolesterol ilac\u0131, hani kan \u201cdonmu\u015f\u201d \u00f6ylesine ya\u011fl\u0131\u2026 Tarifsiz bir mide bulant\u0131s\u0131, a\u011fr\u0131lar\u0131 bir \u015fekilde \u00e7ekiyorsun ama mide bulant\u0131s\u0131 berbat\u2026 \u0130la\u00e7lar\u0131 d\u00fczenli ald\u0131\u011f\u0131mdan beri asl\u0131nda iyiyim AMA bu mide bulant\u0131s\u0131\u2026 Yaa\u2026 \u201cKar\u0131 gibi\u201d a\u011flanmaktan b\u0131kt\u0131m, ya\u015fam\u0131yorum, Allah akl\u0131 ald\u0131 can\u0131m\u0131 alm\u0131yor\u2026 Allah sevdi\u011fi kuluna &hellip; <\/p>\n<p class=\"link-more\"><a href=\"http:\/\/wordpress.gurbuz.net\/?p=2497\" class=\"more-link\"><span class=\"screen-reader-text\">\u201eKendimi \u00f6ld\u00fcrmek i\u00e7in elimden gelen her \u015feyi yap\u0131yorum AMA\u201c<\/span> weiterlesen<\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":[],"categories":[1],"tags":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"http:\/\/wordpress.gurbuz.net\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/2497"}],"collection":[{"href":"http:\/\/wordpress.gurbuz.net\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"http:\/\/wordpress.gurbuz.net\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/wordpress.gurbuz.net\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/wordpress.gurbuz.net\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=2497"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"http:\/\/wordpress.gurbuz.net\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/2497\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":2498,"href":"http:\/\/wordpress.gurbuz.net\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/2497\/revisions\/2498"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"http:\/\/wordpress.gurbuz.net\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=2497"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/wordpress.gurbuz.net\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=2497"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/wordpress.gurbuz.net\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=2497"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}