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Eskiden \u00d6nder diye Google yazd\u0131\u011f\u0131nda\u2026
\n\u00d6nder \u0130mam Hatip okullar\u0131, derne\u011fi diye bir \u015feyler \u00e7\u0131kard\u0131 kar\u015f\u0131ma, sinir olurdum(!)<\/p>\n
Ad\u0131m \u00d6nder\u2026
\nYapt\u0131\u011f\u0131m i\u015fin, ta\u015f\u0131d\u0131\u011f\u0131m ad\u0131n hakk\u0131n\u0131 vermeye \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131r\u0131m\u2026
\nGerekli hallerde \u00f6n planday\u0131m, yeminle, Allah inand\u0131rs\u0131n bu manzarayla ilgim alakam yok\u2026
\nYani ne reklam falan vermedim ne ba\u015fka bir \u015fey\u2026
\nSadece yazd\u0131m, ifade ettim duygular\u0131m\u0131, yazd\u0131m d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcncelerimi, g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015flerimi\u2026
\nAlmanya, 19.09.2017 saat 09 sular\u0131(!)<\/p>\n
I\u015fe bak Tel Aviv ziyaret\u00e7iler aras\u0131nda ilk on aras\u0131ndayken, birdenbire, d\u00fcn dikkat \u00e7ekti\u011fimden beri\u2026
\n241. s\u0131raya d\u00fc\u015ft\u00fc, keza Washington\u2026
\n\u00dcniversite kentleri Cambridge gibi ger\u00e7ekten seviniyorum, benim i\u00e7in gurur vesilesi Harvard\u2026
\nT\u00fcrk \u00fcniversiteleri\u2026
\nEskiden d\u00fczenli, art\u0131k y\u0131llar oluyor T\u00fcrk \u00fcniversitelerinden > kimse< sitelerime girmeyeli\u2026
\nSat\u0131r aralar\u0131, \u015fifreli\u2026
\n\u015eifreye vak\u0131f olan anlar anlatt\u0131klar\u0131m\u0131, beni.<\/p>\n
G\u00f6zle g\u00f6r\u00fcl\u00fcr \u015fekilde kilo verdim, bacaklar art\u0131k \u201chi\u00e7\u201d ta\u015f\u0131maz oldu beni\u2026
\n\u201cYak\u0131nda\u201d soyad\u0131m\u0131 h\u00e2ksiz yere ta\u015f\u0131yaca\u011f\u0131m 😊
\nAllaha \u00e7ok \u015f\u00fck\u00fcr, yatalak veya tekerlekli sandalyede mahk\u00fbm olabilirdim, hala bir \u015fekilde ayaktay\u0131m\u2026
\nK\u00e2busum\u2026
\nEn temel, en insani konularda, kim olursa olsun, birisine muhta\u00e7 olmak\u2026
\n\u00c7ok \u015f\u00fck\u00fcr en az\u0131ndan \u015fimdilik \u201cayaktay\u0131m\u201d Kafa dedi\u011fin, haf\u0131za, bilgi, birikim\u2026
\nA\u011fr\u0131lar\u0131m kontrol alt\u0131nda oldu\u011fu s\u00fcrece damla, damla. A\u011fr\u0131lar azs\u0131n, ben gittim, kafa gitti!<\/p>\n
Bili\u015fim gibi, hukuk gibi hele hele bili\u015fim g\u00fcvenli\u011fi, ileti\u015fim\u2026
\n\u00c7ok \u00f6nemli konular, sanmay\u0131n ki unuttum gitti, penis hasedi kad\u0131n mazo\u015fizmi, yaz\u0131yorum, her g\u00fcn bir iki c\u00fcmle, bazen sayfalar. Duruma g\u00f6re (\u2026)<\/p>\n
Biraz susmal\u0131y\u0131m dostlar, susmal\u0131y\u0131m, odamda, kendi halimde\u2026 >>> D\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnce, dil orucuna <<< girmeliyim, herkesin yapt\u0131\u011f\u0131 gibi, susmal\u0131y\u0131m ki kendime geleyim\u2026
\nKendim i\u00e7in de\u011fil AMA sevdiklerim i\u00e7in, kalbimde ta\u015f\u0131d\u0131klar\u0131m i\u00e7in susmal\u0131y\u0131m.<\/p>\n