Alsam kollar\u0131ma\u2026
\nU\u00e7ursam ar\u015fa\u2026
\nCennet bah\u00e7elerine, sersem bin bir \u00e7i\u00e7ekten olu\u015fan, okyanuslar misali o renk c\u00fcmb\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fc ayaklar\u0131n\u0131n alt\u0131na\u2026
\nDudaklar\u0131m\u0131n ate\u015fiyle erisen g\u00fcne\u015fi g\u00f6rm\u00fc\u015f mum gibi kollar\u0131m\u0131n aras\u0131nda\u2026
\nG\u00f6rensen d\u00fcnyan\u0131n ka\u00e7 bucak oldu\u011funu \u00d6nder ile birlikte, benim g\u00f6zlerimle\u2026
\nAh bir g\u00f6rsen, bir his etsen benim g\u00f6rd\u00fck ve his ettiklerimi, benim g\u00f6zlerimle, y\u00fcre\u011fimle.<\/p>\n
Bu ne ya\u2026
\nYa arkada\u015f bir bismillah de \u00f6nce\u2026
\nD\u00fcn \u00f6ld\u00fcm \u00f6ld\u00fcm dirildim\u2026
\n23-24 gibi yatt\u0131m, iki gibi kalkt\u0131m, 4-5 saat u\u00e7tum, \u00fc\u00e7, d\u00f6rt uyu\u015fturucu\u2026
\nAlm\u0131\u015ft\u0131m, bundan ka\u00e7 zaman \u00f6nce, ald\u0131m saklad\u0131m, g\u00f6nl\u00fcmde olan gizli duygular gibi, s\u00f6yleyemediklerim, kula\u011f\u0131na f\u0131s\u0131ldayamad\u0131klar\u0131m gibi. <\/p>\n
Bulmu\u015flar, k\u0131rk haramiler\u2026
\nArkada\u015f bizim evde, Ali\u2019nin dedi\u011fi gibi t\u0131rt\u0131l var\u2026
\nKalm\u0131yor\u2026
\nHem \u00fcretici hem t\u00fcketiciyiz\u2026
\nGittim ald\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131 tekrar ald\u0131m, g\u00f6zler biber, otoban, kaza yapt\u0131m yapaca\u011f\u0131m, reaksiyonlar\u0131m \u00f6ylesine yava\u015flam\u0131\u015f durumdayd\u0131 ki. Zor att\u0131m kendimi eve. Paketledim paketleyece\u011fimi verdim postaya.
\nKarma\u015f\u0131k duygularla (!)<\/p>\n
\u00d6yle derler, bug\u00fcne kadar hayat\u0131ma giren T\u00dcM kad\u0131nlardan duymu\u015fumdur bu s\u00f6z\u00fc\u2026
\n\u201cBana \u00f6yle bakma\u201d
\nAli att\u0131 beni \u00f6nce d\u00fckk\u00e2na, araba orda, herkes\u2026
\nAnnem yoktu, \u00e7ocuklar\u0131n yan\u0131nda her zamanki gibi, han\u0131m yaln\u0131z\u2026
\n\u0130\u015fte ho\u015f geldin, ho\u015fbe\u015f ne var ne yok\u2026
\nBir ara\u2026
\n\u201cBana \u00f6yle bakma\u201d
\nAr\u0131k nas\u0131l bir bak\u0131\u015fsa 😊
\nKad\u0131n bilir akl\u0131mdan ge\u00e7eni, \u00f6zlemi, hasretti\u2026
\nKad\u0131n bilir, kad\u0131n olan his eder, kad\u0131n bilir. \u00c7apk\u0131n bir bak\u0131\u015f\u0131m varm\u0131\u015f, dedim ya istisnas\u0131z hepsi s\u00f6yledi, s\u00f6yler. Kad\u0131n olan beni y\u00fcre\u011finde his eder.<\/p>\n
Bir f\u0131r\u00e7a\u2026
\nSabah, sabah bir f\u0131r\u00e7a sen b\u00f6yle \u015feyler nas\u0131l yazars\u0131n?
\nAbdest\u2026
\nAh anac\u0131\u011f\u0131m benim, kara Mediha\u2019m\u2026
\n\u201cHerkes seni okuyor, \u00e7ok okuyan\u0131n var\u201d
\nBir noktaya kadar hakl\u0131 ama bir noktadan sonra \u00d6nder girer devreye\u2026
\nKad\u0131n ba\u015fka, kar\u0131m ba\u015fka, kad\u0131n\u0131m bamba\u015fka\u2026<\/p>\n