{"id":19313,"date":"2019-02-28T13:39:57","date_gmt":"2019-02-28T13:39:57","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/wordpress.gurbuz.net\/?p=19313"},"modified":"2019-02-28T14:02:59","modified_gmt":"2019-02-28T14:02:59","slug":"kendi-kendinin-goelgesi","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/wordpress.gurbuz.net\/?p=19313","title":{"rendered":"Kendi kendinin g\u00f6lgesi"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>Kimi yara vard\u0131r kapanmaz\u2026<br \/>\nKa\u015f\u0131san, kanamaz!<\/p>\n<p><iframe loading=\"lazy\" width=\"525\" height=\"295\" src=\"https:\/\/www.youtube.com\/embed\/Kqsq_8hyPMM?feature=oembed\" frameborder=\"0\" allow=\"accelerometer; autoplay; encrypted-media; gyroscope; picture-in-picture\" allowfullscreen><\/iframe><\/p>\n<p>Hava g\u00fcne\u015fli\u2026<br \/>\nP\u0131r\u0131l p\u0131r\u0131l, atlad\u0131m arabaya, do\u011fru evlada\u2026<br \/>\nUnuttum, \u00e7ok \u00f6nemli mektuplar gelmi\u015fti\u2026<br \/>\nUnuttum vermeye, yolda giderken\u2026<br \/>\nG\u00f6z\u00fcm dikiz aynas\u0131na tak\u0131ld\u0131, sakallar uzam\u0131\u015f yine\u2026<br \/>\nBirka\u00e7 g\u00fcnd\u00fcr t\u0131ra\u015f olmuyorum, sar\u0131s\u0131, beyaz\u0131 kar\u0131\u015fm\u0131\u015f birbirine\u2026<br \/>\nG\u00f6z\u00fcmde canland\u0131 tek tek hayat\u0131ma giren kad\u0131nlar, Allah neler verdi, neler neler ald\u0131 elimden.<\/p>\n<p>Evet\u2026<br \/>\n\u0130nsan vard\u0131r\u2026<br \/>\nKendi kendisinin g\u00f6lgesidir, ah\u0131 gitmi\u015f vah\u2019\u0131 kalm\u0131\u015f hali\u2026<br \/>\nSanki ger\u00e7ekmi\u015f gibi\u2026<br \/>\nYa\u015famaya ba\u015flad\u0131m kimi ge\u00e7mi\u015fi\u2026<br \/>\nKimi olay\u2026<br \/>\nNas\u0131l kald\u0131m hayata, nas\u0131l ya nas\u0131l durabildim ayakta?<\/p>\n<p>\u015e\u00fcphesiz\u2026<br \/>\nKoruyucu meleklerim, Allah\u2019\u0131n takdiri\u2026<br \/>\n\u0130\u00e7, i\u00e7 uyu\u015fturucuyu, yut haplar\u0131\u2026<br \/>\nVar ya\u2026<br \/>\nG\u00f6lgesi dahi bir espri!<\/p>\n<p>Geldim kap\u0131n\u0131n \u00f6n\u00fcne\u2026<br \/>\nArabas\u0131 bah\u00e7ede, g\u00fcne\u015f vurmu\u015f arabaya par\u0131l par\u0131l parl\u0131yor\u2026<br \/>\n\u0130ndim arabadan, baka kald\u0131m arabas\u0131na, arkas\u0131nda, birka\u00e7 metre ileride evi\u2026<br \/>\nBalkonu\u2026<br \/>\nYa ne zaman b\u00fcy\u00fcd\u00fc ne zaman yuvadan u\u00e7tu?<\/p>\n<p>Az kald\u0131\u2026<br \/>\n\u00c7ok az k\u0131smetse ger\u00e7ekten yuvadan u\u00e7acak\u2026<br \/>\nYine geldi gen\u00e7li\u011fim akl\u0131ma\u2026<br \/>\nOnun ya\u015f\u0131ndayken ya\u015fad\u0131klar\u0131ma\u2026<br \/>\nCan\u0131m istedi bir kadeh konyak, oturay\u0131m bah\u00e7esine\u2026<br \/>\nKendimi o kadar yorgun his ettim ki.<\/p>\n<p>Ah gen\u00e7lik\u2026<br \/>\nAh sa\u011fl\u0131k\u2026.<br \/>\nBezginlik.<\/p>\n<p>Bekler k\u0131r\u0131m\u0131z\u0131 biberim, bekler sar\u0131 pipim\u2026<br \/>\nBekler beni\u2026<br \/>\nAk<span style=\"display: inline !important; float: none; background-color: transparent; color: #333333; cursor: text; font-family: 'Libre Franklin','Helvetica Neue',helvetica,arial,sans-serif; font-size: 16px; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; letter-spacing: normal; orphans: 2; text-align: left; text-decoration: none; text-indent: 0px; text-transform: none; -webkit-text-stroke-width: 0px; white-space: normal; word-spacing: 0px;\">\u015f<\/span>am olsa, g\u00fcne\u015f bir batsa, ah bir batsa\u2026<br \/>\nG\u00f6lgeler kaybolsa.<\/p>\n<p>\u00d6zledim biliyor musunuz?<br \/>\n\u00c7ok \u00f6zledim\u2026<br \/>\nJilet gibi \u00fct\u00fclenmi\u015f pantolon, kolal\u0131 g\u00f6mlek\u2026<br \/>\nAyna gibi parlayan ayakkab\u0131, fiyakal\u0131 bir kravat\u2026<br \/>\nYok\u2026<br \/>\nYok bug\u00fcn havamda de\u011filim, tak\u0131m elbisenin\u2026<br \/>\nKombinasyon\u2026<br \/>\n\u00d6rne\u011fin gri bir pantolon, koyu mavi ceket\u2026<br \/>\nCebimde para, kolumda esmeri, kumral\u0131, sar\u0131\u015f\u0131n\u0131\u2026<br \/>\nNe kadar mutluymu\u015fum o zamanlar\u2026<br \/>\nBilemedim de\u011ferini.<\/p>\n<p>Dedim ya tek tek geldiler g\u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fcn \u00f6n\u00fcne\u2026<br \/>\nSon durak, son kalacak\u2026<br \/>\n\u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc\u2026<br \/>\nUfukta g\u00fcn bat\u0131m\u0131\u2026<br \/>\nG\u00f6ky\u00fcz\u00fc k\u0131pk\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131!<\/p>\n<p>Almal\u0131y\u0131m ruhsat\u0131\u2026<br \/>\nBurada, orada\u2026<br \/>\n\u00d6zlem, hasret yine had safhada\u2026<br \/>\nMUTLAKA\u2026<br \/>\nTakaca\u011f\u0131m belime Zigana\u2019y\u0131\u2026<br \/>\nBurada P229\u2019u\u2026<br \/>\nBelki\u2026<br \/>\nHani korkmasam Allah\u2019tan, hani g\u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fc korkutmam\u0131\u015f olsalard\u0131\u2026<br \/>\n\u00c7ocuklu\u011fumdan beri\u2026<br \/>\nBelki (\u2026)<br \/>\nNe etmeli, nas\u0131l etmeli\u2026<br \/>\n\u0130ki diyar aras\u0131\u2026<br \/>\nHangisini se\u00e7meli?<\/p>\n<p>Buuu\u2026<br \/>\nTam bir \u00d6nder i\u015fi, \u00d6nder \u00e7\u0131kmaz\u0131!<br \/>\nx<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Kimi yara vard\u0131r kapanmaz\u2026 Ka\u015f\u0131san, kanamaz! Hava g\u00fcne\u015fli\u2026 P\u0131r\u0131l p\u0131r\u0131l, atlad\u0131m arabaya, do\u011fru evlada\u2026 Unuttum, \u00e7ok \u00f6nemli mektuplar gelmi\u015fti\u2026 Unuttum vermeye, yolda giderken\u2026 G\u00f6z\u00fcm dikiz aynas\u0131na tak\u0131ld\u0131, sakallar uzam\u0131\u015f yine\u2026 Birka\u00e7 g\u00fcnd\u00fcr t\u0131ra\u015f olmuyorum, sar\u0131s\u0131, beyaz\u0131 kar\u0131\u015fm\u0131\u015f birbirine\u2026 G\u00f6z\u00fcmde canland\u0131 tek tek hayat\u0131ma giren kad\u0131nlar, Allah neler verdi, neler neler ald\u0131 elimden. Evet\u2026 \u0130nsan vard\u0131r\u2026 &hellip; <\/p>\n<p class=\"link-more\"><a href=\"http:\/\/wordpress.gurbuz.net\/?p=19313\" class=\"more-link\"><span class=\"screen-reader-text\">\u201eKendi kendinin g\u00f6lgesi\u201c<\/span> weiterlesen<\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":[],"categories":[1],"tags":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"http:\/\/wordpress.gurbuz.net\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/19313"}],"collection":[{"href":"http:\/\/wordpress.gurbuz.net\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"http:\/\/wordpress.gurbuz.net\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/wordpress.gurbuz.net\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/wordpress.gurbuz.net\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=19313"}],"version-history":[{"count":6,"href":"http:\/\/wordpress.gurbuz.net\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/19313\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":19319,"href":"http:\/\/wordpress.gurbuz.net\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/19313\/revisions\/19319"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"http:\/\/wordpress.gurbuz.net\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=19313"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/wordpress.gurbuz.net\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=19313"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/wordpress.gurbuz.net\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=19313"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}