Merak etme\u2026
\nBenim g\u00f6z\u00fcmden hi\u00e7bir \u015fey ka\u00e7maz\u2026
\nNormalinde!???<\/p>\n
Yak\u0131\u015ft\u0131ramad\u0131klar\u0131m\u2026
\nKonduramad\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u2026
\nD\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnmek, hayal bile etmek istemediklerim\u2026
\nOlur, oluyor sevdiklerime\u2026
\nSa\u011fl\u0131\u011f\u0131m birazc\u0131k yerindeyse, yani a\u011fr\u0131lar\u0131m kontrol alt\u0131nda tutulabildi\u011fi s\u00fcrece\u2026
\nBenim g\u00f6z\u00fcmden hi\u00e7bir \u015fey ka\u00e7maz\u2026
\nNormalinde!???<\/p>\n
Normal dedi\u011fimiz nedir sence?<\/p>\n
S\u0131radanla\u015fan bir seyir, s\u00fcre\u00e7 ise\u2026
\n\u00d6nderin hayat\u0131 de\u011fildir al\u0131\u015f\u0131lagelmi\u015fle\u2026
\nUzla\u015fmak bir bi\u00e7imde!<\/p>\n
Bak k\u00e2\u011f\u0131t kuyut i\u015fleri, oldum olas\u0131 nefret ederim\u2026
\nBir noktada \u00e7ak\u0131l\u0131p kalmay\u0131, hareket, s\u00fcrekli\u2026
\nZorla k\u00f6pek ava gider mi?<\/p>\n
Eskiden birka\u00e7 saate belki\u2026
\nEn fazla bir g\u00fcnde alt\u0131ndan kalkabileceklerim al\u0131yor g\u00fcnlerimi\u2026
\n\u00d6yle yava\u015flad\u0131m ki\u2026
\nEskiden f\u0131rt\u0131na gibi olan ben d\u00f6nd\u00fcm g.t\u00fcme\u2026
\nS\u00fcm\u00fckl\u00fc b\u00f6cekten beter, bu sabah benden ya\u015fl\u0131 adam, annem ya annem mesela\u2026
\nY\u00fcr\u00fcrken benden h\u0131zl\u0131. Tan\u0131yorum adam\u0131, 70’e yak\u0131n. Sa\u011fl\u0131k y\u00fcr\u00fcy\u00fc\u015f\u00fc, h\u0131zl\u0131 h\u0131zl\u0131\u2026
\nBen yeni s\u00fcnnet olmu\u015f \u00e7ocuk gibi\u2026
\nBacaklar, ad\u0131mlar a\u00e7\u0131lm\u0131yor ki!<\/p>\n
Senin en b\u00fcy\u00fck sorunun\u2026
\nBencilli\u011fin, egoizm\u2026
\nKendine, hayat\u0131na \u00f6rnek ald\u0131\u011f\u0131n insan b\u00fcy\u00fck bir d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcr olsa bile\u2026
\nManya\u011f\u0131n teki, senin gibi\u2026
\nNas\u0131l ki senin yanl\u0131\u015f\u0131n bencilik ise benimki\u2026
\n\u00d6zveri!<\/p>\n
Yeti\u015ftiremiyorum\u2026
\nCan\u0131mda u\u011fra\u015fmak istemiyor art\u0131k\u2026
\n\u0130nan\u2026
\nBak yeminle, vallahi billahi yapabilirim, z\u0131rdeliyim\u2026
\nKafam \u00e7al\u0131\u015fm\u0131yor k\u0131z\u0131m, kafam\u2026
\nEn ufak bir hata eskiden oldu\u011fu gibi \u00e7ok ama \u00e7ok pahal\u0131ya m\u00e2l olabilir\u2026
\nDikkatli olmal\u0131y\u0131m, sa\u011flam kafa sa\u011flam bedende olur meselesi\u2026
\nY\u00fczbinleri bir anda feda edebilecek hale geldim. Bakal\u0131m\u2026
\nKendim i\u00e7in de\u011fil vallahi, billahi\u2026
\nEvlat i\u00e7in, evlat. Var m\u0131 evlattan daha de\u011ferli?<\/p>\n
Bah\u00e7e, ye\u015fillik o ba\u015fka hep istedim di\u2026
\nM\u00fcstakil, biliyorsun topra\u011fa verdi\u011fim de\u011feri\u2026
\nOkullar ba\u015flad\u0131 yine, Jack dahil her \u015fey yine bende\u2026
\nBelki g\u00fcn i\u00e7eresinde y\u00e2rinki randevuyu erteleyebilirim.<\/p>\n
Haa sa\u011fl\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u2026
\nA\u011fr\u0131lar = uyku\u2026
\nD\u00fcn yazd\u0131m orospu kar\u0131 misali\u2026
\nCilveli\u2026
\n\u0130nan \u00e7ok yorgunum, \u00e7ok b\u0131kk\u0131n\u2026
\nOrospunun kime bacak a\u00e7aca\u011f\u0131 belli olmuyor ki!<\/p>\n
Anlayaca\u011f\u0131n\u2026
\nNeyi ne zaman yapaca\u011f\u0131m art\u0131k hi\u00e7 belli olmuyor benim!<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
Merak etme\u2026 Benim g\u00f6z\u00fcmden hi\u00e7bir \u015fey ka\u00e7maz\u2026 Normalinde!??? Yak\u0131\u015ft\u0131ramad\u0131klar\u0131m\u2026 Konduramad\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u2026 D\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnmek, hayal bile etmek istemediklerim\u2026 Olur, oluyor sevdiklerime\u2026 Sa\u011fl\u0131\u011f\u0131m birazc\u0131k yerindeyse, yani a\u011fr\u0131lar\u0131m kontrol alt\u0131nda tutulabildi\u011fi s\u00fcrece\u2026 Benim g\u00f6z\u00fcmden hi\u00e7bir \u015fey ka\u00e7maz\u2026 Normalinde!??? Normal dedi\u011fimiz nedir sence? S\u0131radanla\u015fan bir seyir, s\u00fcre\u00e7 ise\u2026 \u00d6nderin hayat\u0131 de\u011fildir al\u0131\u015f\u0131lagelmi\u015fle\u2026 Uzla\u015fmak bir bi\u00e7imde! Bak k\u00e2\u011f\u0131t kuyut i\u015fleri, oldum olas\u0131 … <\/p>\n